The month of not knitting

As I close in on the end of the first month of not knitting, I am coming to the realisation that knitting is central to my existence. If you know me personally, you know that I live an impossibly crazy life where *major* obstacles surround me on a daily basis. By and large, I take it on the chin, drink a little wine, whine a lot and move along.

Yesterday, after not breathing properly for days on end, my husband went on home-IV. This is par for the course in our lives and normally would just be another one of the major-but-minor-to-me annoyances I have learned to live with. Except last night, after a long day of bday celebrations for my 8 y.o. and dealing with work, I came home late and could not knit away the stress. I knew I missed knitting. I knew the diagonal-buttoned-cardi that has been calling me from inside the knitting bag for the last month was calling even louder, and I couldn’t do it. And it made me very sad and frustrated. Because knitting, it’s my processing. It’s my way of dealing. It numbs me to it all. The repetitive nature, the fact that I can do it without thinking and I can do it for hours on end, it clears my mind, allows me to somehow keep on going with everything else.

And right now, I can’t do it. I don’t know when I will be able to knit again. The cast come off in 2 weeks, but I don’t know if I will be able to knit right away….

 

(I promise not to turn the craft blog into a downer blog. I promise!!!!)

Comments

  1. A says:

    I hate to be overly positive because I hate that in a person, but I have to say it’s actually more amazing what you have been able to accomplish (work, drive, type, cross stitch, etc…) than what you haven’t.

  2. R says:

    i dont think i realized how important your passion to your craft was. Im always amazed by you, motivated and challenged by you (as i try to knit up the sides of my felt basket…what the F— am i doing???)
    and of all things you master cross-stitch with one hand….as you would say DUDE, thats just not real!
    im going to find you a tool for one hand knitting someone must have invented that somewhere no?
    xo